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| 02.10.04 (4:07 pm) [edit] |
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So I know I said I was going to switch my blog over to a new one and stuff but I just havent been able to. Anyways... It has been quite a long while I guess since I have last posted. Sorry to the people who actually read my blog. Yeah so new stuff....let's see... Well on sunday I played Dungeons and Dragons with some friends of mine. It was pretty cool. I enjoy playing games like D&D. I was really upset when I first got there but we didn't start playing for a little while so I had some time to calm down. I got really into the game for a while but near the end I was feeling really sick and couldent concentrate. Right now I'm feeling sick aswell. I have been since thursday night. Just a cold of somesort I suppose. But it's really dragging me down. Last night was a pretty bad night. I was feeling sick like I have been for the last couple of days and my mind was running away like I let it do sometimes. I still havent got over something that I have been struggling with for 3or4 years now. It seems impossible to overcome. But I can't sit there and constantly think that. If I do it gets me no where. I know God is helping me with my struggle but you know sometimes I just give in. I feel ashamed to admit it. But I do. I give in and I don't know what to do afterwards except to keep giving in or refuse to give in. To keep giving in is of course easier then the latter. But I have been able to fight and make it through tough times more than I use to be able to. God blessed me with people who genuinely care about me and want to see me grow in him. I love these people dearly and wish I could have them around all the time. I feel like I always need someone to be asking me "Have you been doing this latley?" I don't know if in reality it would help at all, but in my head it seems to make sense. Anyways right now I just try and call people when I feel I need to talk. It helps and these people are so understanding that they don't mind me calling ever I need help in some area. But sometimes I just don't call when I should. I don't call when I need to the most. Something to work on I guess. Something a lot of people need to work on. Well that's my update for now. I'll try to post more in the upcoming days... |